I learned more and more about Islam and as more I read as more I was confused as I got so many different informations about the same topic and sometimes I was told the complete opposite about the same so after a while I just stopped and said myself that the Muslims itself are not all on the same page.
Then one day the big bang happend. Guess you can call it like that. It was still summer vacation time at my University and I also had that day of from my part-time work so I just stayed at home and relaxed. I watched TV (just one of those talkshows) and fell asleep on the sofa. Suddenly I woke up and saw the news all over the TV. That was the 11th of September 2001.
I guess you all know that after that the reputation of Islam went down (can't say it was very good before).
My curiosity awaked again because I couldn't believe that a religion really supported a terrorist attack like that on the World Trade Center.
After some research on the net I met a Muslim who was very patient with me and explained me all the differences in Islam, why I got so many different answers. He told me what is the difference between Suni and Shia, what are scholars and Islamic sects and he send me a lot of books to read which were more Islam friendly as the one I read before.
I finally did kind of understand Islam and the Muslims and also in what situation they saw themself but I still wasn't convinced of becoming a Muslim as the one most important thing was missing, the believe in Allah itself
but I will write more about that next time
Monday, 21 February 2011
Thursday, 17 February 2011
First contact
During my early childhood I had always more or less a bit of contact to Muslims but of course as child I didn't really care about.
The first time I started really being interested in Islam was when I was about 13 years old.
My mum and I used to go to Morocco twice a year so she had some friends over there and one of them asked her to bring some books who were prohibited.
This books were lying around in our house for a while so I started reading them. They were actually not very positive about Islam specially when it came to women's rights but at least I started getting curious about all these things.
So I started reading whatever came into my fingers and found it very confusing as I found a lot of different opinions about same or similar topics.
By that time I was already 16 and started questioning all Muslims I met as I finally wanted to know the truth about Islam even though I didn't consider at all to revert at that time as actually my whole opinion was more negative then positive.
Many things just seemed so wrong to me, specially polygamy and hijab.
I just couldn't believe that any Muslims could be happy.
My mum supported that kind of view as she told me that Muslims don't love they children and they do "breeding" just our of fear of Allah.
She also told me that woman are proper slaves and don't have any rights at all.
So I guess you might be can imagine how negative Islam looked to me.
I know that some parts of this sounds a bit harsh but I wanted to describe how I felt at that time. Al hamdulillah now I know the truth as Allah showed me the right way.....
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